So, the firing up of the blog again was inspired by my iminent juice detox. I think that talking to myself on here will somehow help me through it. And like so many boring fuckers before me I will be charting my progress.
So, why?
I lost 19 lbs before I went away on holiday, my goal was 20lbs for which I would buy myself a red pandora charm but I didn't quite get there, but I was in the 'zone' , dieting and exercising and enjoying it.
I know I always bang on about my weight but it is very important to me, because being too far overweight has a serious negative effect on my mood. It makes me depressed and anxious for some reason and I don't want to feel like that! I'm not bothered about looking slim to fit some social norm (when have I ever fitted a social norm?) . but when I am fatter I just feel more miserable and I wish I could explain why.
Since coming home from holiday I have been back to my old habits, which include major binge eating ( pizza and 8 bread rolls with ham and cheese, garlic bread & lasagne yesterday for instance) The wine and pizza consumption has increased 10 fold and obviously my waist is following suit! I don't know why I am doing it, I know how miserable I'll be if I put back on all the weight I have lost, yet I keep stuffing my face!
Every Tuesday when my weight watchers points tracker re-sets, I start afresh with good intentions, but by Thursday I've binged all my points away!
Well yesterday I logged into my groupon app. and there was a deal for a 5 day juice detox. I bought it. I thought it may be a way of resetting myself so to speak, like when I used to stick the end of a biro into the back of my digital watch off of the market. Ok I think I'm waffling now.
I'll keep you posted.
erm , how do I edit all the mistakes!??
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